Labyrinth of My Life











{April 29, 2009}   Officially moved!

hehe.. b4 this i mentioned that i wanna transfer my post rite..

tp d sebabkn kemalasan yg melanda, i think i transfer nothing.. hakhak..

see ya in my blogspot..

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p/s: woops.. i’ll announce my blogspot at frenster, facebook and skype.. or if in case u cant contact me via those, juz comment on this post.. i’ll reply you personally.. bubye..



{April 29, 2009}   Breakin news

tired~~ i’m totally exhausted.. the party went smoothly well.. n i enjoy it.. hehe.. thesis x siap2 lg nih.. lmbt la aku anto kt tda.. huhu..

hmm.. juz now, a fren of mine is requesting me to transfer to blogspot coz he said that worpress is boring..

mmg boring pon..

so..

i’m leaving kot..

but myb after i had finish my thesis things..

that time, i’ve got plenty of time to transfer.. n to create my own blogspot with my own design.. *wink2*

i’ll transfer MOST of my post.. or myb ALL of my post (depend on my kerajinan.. hahaha)

other reason for me to transfer? huhu.. because i wanna completely vanish from sum1’s life.. myb he’s not even read my wp blog but he knows this blog..

the fact that he knows this blog always make me wonder if he read this blog.. so.. i dont want to keep thinking of him, so, its better for me to transfer to the unknown.. heh heh..

until then.. do keep track with my news.. i’ll tell u when the time has come to transfer..

salam



{April 28, 2009}   Nota kecil 4: A lil’ feeling

hmm.. sumhow i feel insecure abt pool party tonite..

dont know why.. (well actually i know exactly why.. sje ckp dont know y.. dramatic ckit.. haha)

hope everythg’s gonna be juz fine..

hate it when i having this kind of thoughts.. it makes thing dont feel rite..

arghh!

p/s: harap2 aku dpt sembunyikn perasaan aku dgn baik.. pray to God.. Amin..

p/s-2: i need a savior.. who wanna b my superhero tonite? hakhak



{April 26, 2009}   almost at the end

lme nyer x post apa2.. walhal byk je bnda yg boley d ceritakn.. spnjg dua mggu lps adalah exam week n mse aku kdg2 pnuh dgn rock legend n sketsa (langsung x m’jurus pd study.. haha).. last paper aku aritu adalah, estate management d mne aku tlh mjawab dgn pnuh kekusyukn memegang tisu d idung sb idung gue selesema.. wuaaa~~ right afta exam, we all have to stay utk prepare dewan utk Unity Is Love.. aku g smyg dlu.. tgk2 je sume kosi meja exam dh clear, tggl utk prepare stage n kosi meja dinner je.. hee.. lnts kami2 pon menolong apa yg ptt..

UIL ke-4 sgt mberi kesan dlm idup kami.. time bsalam2an dgn kwn2, terasa sebak gak sb aku akn meninggalkn Bintulu dgn 4 thn kenangan bersama mereka.. dgn ketiadaan keluarga d cni, kitorg survive bsama2 d tmpt yg jauh..

byk pahit manis aku kt tmpt ni.. bmacam2 ragam manusia aku jumpa, yg mbuatkn aku rse suka, syg, bnci, bengang etc.. Alhamdulillah, i can adapt n survive.. altho there’s a few yg aku x larat nk lyn, i left them broken-hearted.. i’m sorry.. its not bcoz of u.. but its failures to me coz i walk away from ur guys’ lives coz i cant go on with u guys.. dan skrg aku memerlukn kekuatan utk mnamatkn pbelajarn aku d cni..

Help me to find it, yaAllah.. i need U to lead me.. show me the path.. not all i can utter verbally but i know U always know what i feel deep in my heart..



{April 21, 2009}   I hate this guy

God, i hate this guy! can sum1 plz get him out of my face..

His name is Lou, the CEO of Seriously Bad Music.. and he’s screeching solo! damn i hate him.. huhu..

how in the world will i defeat this guy.. can sum1 plz gv me the answer? wuwu..

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Juz look at him.. mcm sadis gle..

haha.. ngutuk2 rock legend lak.. study x mau.. hehe.. mntk maap la ye.. sy t’emosi lak.. sb sy igt nk abeh kn rock legend mlm ni.. tp sgkut kt big boss die.. hehe..

utk sesape yg lom smpai lvl ni, sorry coz i gv u the spoiler.. korg hadap la mamat ni nti.. aku yg lvl 50, dgn point 559 dh tggl separuh dh.. bdk2 band aku tggl kosong jek point.. hampeh tol..



{April 14, 2009}   My Heart Is A Soldier

I fight to make you stronger, to make you love your life.
I fight to show you purpose, to keep you satisfied.
I fight to make you happy. I war to win your heart.
I’d fight forever for you. I ache when we’re apart.

I’m fighting for us. My heart is a soldier.
I’m killing myself. My heart is a soldier marching to die.

I fight to stay together, to bring us eye to eye.
I fight to speak your language, to keep you by my side.
I fight to make it easy. I push to give you time.
I fight our losing battle. I bleed to stay alive.

I’m fighting for us. My heart is a soldier.
I’m killing myself. My heart is a soldier marching to die.

Am I twisting everything?
It’s hard to tell when all I see is temporarily between the way it should and shouldn’t be.

I’m fighting for us. My heart is a soldier.
I’m killing myself. My heart is a soldier marching to die.
My heart’s a soldier. My heart’s a soldier.

I fall like a fighter when you give me a shot. I’ll live like a lover when you’re all that I’ve got.

I’m fighting for us. My heart is a soldier.
I’m killing myself. My heart is a soldier marching to die.

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{April 13, 2009}   Breathe

its suffocating..

breathe

its not easy..

breathe

i wish i can..

breathe

almost give up..

breathe

slowly..

breathe

there r ppl nvr give up on u..

breathe

there r ppl supporting u..

breathe

slowly.. to the top..

breathe

inhale till the air fill ur lungs..

breathe

see how ppl cheering on u..

breathe

see how ppl glad to see u..

breathe

with a smile on ur face..

u make it.. u have survive..

p/s: i wish i can breathe to the top..



phew~ utk sem ni, aku rse aku x prnh lg bkesempatan tgk ke langit n t’bayangkn aku berada on the other side of the cloud.. on the plane.. too bz to think.. too bz to enjoy.. too bz to feel anything.. tp arini, i’m looking at the sky! hmm.. dh nk abeh dh sem ni.. too many memories.. there r things yg mmg x buleh nk d perbaiki.. but live for today n juz look forward for the future..



{April 8, 2009}   Yosh! the burden has lessen

mggu lps yg sgt hectic tlh pon blalu.. urm.. hectic ke.. agak la..

02/04/09 (khamis)

test shw.. alhamdulillah aku rse aku leh jwb kali ni.. tp xtau la kn.. kang overkondifen lak, malu lak aku klo dpt markah rendah.. huhu..lps test shw, aku tdoq.. slide x siap lg.. haha

03/04/09 (jumaat)

masih mamai.. berada d awang2an.. masih blur dgn slide presentation.. mlm kul 4 lbh bru aku siap completely slide.. aku tmbh slide result n discussion n conclusion je dr slide proposal aku.. n btul2 ckit slide method.. hoho.. lntas aku tdo pd jam 5pagi..

04/04/09 (sabtu)

jam 6 pg aku dh dgr sore cha praktis present.. aku yg bru tdo sejam, trus tutup tlinga ngn bntl.. kul 7.50pg cha bising2 tnye xnk g present ke.. lnts aku pon bgn.. kul 8.50 aku print slide, kul 9.15 aku gerak g tmpt present..

aku meninjau2 dr luar.. panel duduk d blkg.. adoiyai.. x kire aku msuk gune pntu mne, aku stil akn kne lalu dpn panel.. adoi2.. nk x nk, aku msuk gak.. dh r lab mate aku dok kt dpn skali.. bgos! cemerlang kome2 ni..

pas sign attendan n break utk kudapan kul 10, aku, megat n fendi x msuk2 dh.. almaklumlah sume present lps lunch.. sume dok lepak kt luar..  dok praktis2.. ngumpat2.. n mnakutkn sape2 psl panel2 kt jbtn kami.. jbtn sains asasi dan kjuruteraan.. ‘can u draw chemical structure for amylopectin (btul ke bndalah ni? aku x msuk lg time dr.hamdan tnye ni.. hoho)’.. smpai kn ded ckp lbh sanggup present 10 kali kt jbtn phutanan dr present kt JSAK..

aku present pas lunch break.. aku org 1st.. dlu mse proposal, aku org last sblum lunch break.. kul 1.30, panel2 masih x cukup.. cik azira dh calling2 en,wong.. waduh2.. makin bdebar gue.. kul 1.45 viva tlh pon d lakukn d dpn panel2 n soalan2 tlh pon d ajukn.. aku tlh present dgn slow and steady, bbeza dgn presentation aku yg lps2 yg mcm speedy gonzales.. ini adalah gara2 tekak aku mulai sakit n aku kne ckp dgn intonasi yg tkawal utk mngelakkn dr tbatuk sms mgunakn mic yg mungkin akn memekakkn telinga audience2.. alhamdulillah.. lega~

pastu, aku tggu pakcik megat lak present.. megat tlh d kecam hebat oleh panel2.. ‘what do u mean by oil & grease?’, ‘what is the different between oil & grease and total petroleum hydrocarbon?’.. n megat dgn slumber nye tlh mlancarkn peperangan thadap panel2.. siap wt muka lg kt dr.yiu.. haha.. caya lah! aku kt dpn trase mcm nk putus napas jek tgk megat d ajukn pelbagai soalan.. trase mcm nk angkat tgn n jwb kn.. cewah.. 😛 mcm btul jek jwpn aku, klo aku tlg pon.. hakhak.. (tringat mse mr.taufik present progress, rmai gadis2 tlh bangkit dan menolong mr.taufik utk mjawab.. hakhak..)

bl megat abeh jek present, aku, megat, aisah g melantak kt ats.. pastu non lak join..

pastu kitorg msuk blk, n dgr presentation laen2 smpai abeh..

FIN (utk viva) – pastu kami g brenang.. esoknya test swimming lak!

05/04/09 (ahad)

mse smpai tu dh bdebar2 je rse.. cikgu2 kelihatan sgt pelik sb mberi kami mkn biskut tiger.. hmm.. ok.. pastu ade sesi bgambo.. hehe..

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pastu test pon bmula.. aku berada d lane 4.. kanan aku, ida.. kiri aku mawi.. cuak sey.. mereka bdua ni sgt laju.. isk2..

tp alhamdulillah aku lps sume..

50 m free-style

50 m breaststroke

object recovery

dive underwater (kne lbh dr 4 lane.. tseksa gak nk dpt)

floating

yosh! kami tlh bjaya!

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{April 2, 2009}   Di surau kecil itu

waktu tu aku tgk jam dh nk abeh maghrib dh tp kami, ank2 dara, msih lg berada d luar gara2 ingin mbeli brg2 utk ke dinner makosra..

secara jujurnya, klo aku berada d luar, x prnh aku smyg sb d bndr, aku x nmpk pon mne2 tmpt yg mbolehkn kami tuk menunaikn kewajipan kami..

tp at that particular magrib, d tgh2 pasar mlm yg sibuk, kami bsembahyang d sebuah surau yg kecil.. x prnh aku msuk dlm surau tu.. tu la 1st time..

keadaan d dlm sgt selesa.. lps smyg magrib, d surau kecil tu aku dpt mendengar azan isya’ dgn pnuh penghayatan.. syahdu nya trase.. YaAllah, betapa aku dh lme xmenghayati alunan azan yg menenangkn ati aku.. kami solat jemaah sme2.. bgenang mata aku bl memikirkn sejak aku sibuk dgn FYP, aku amat jrg khusyu’ mcm tu skali.. Alhamdulillah d surau kecil itu aku menerima ketenangan yg aku rse aku x jumpa d kampus.. surau kecil itu terlalu istimewa kerana d luar manusia sibuk mngejar kebendaan dan hal dunia..sme seperti aku yg hanyut dgn FYP dan sentiasa sibuk..

Harap aku dpt mhabiskn FYP dgn cpt..



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